Howdy Howdy all!  I normally don't post 2 entries so close together but I have had an eventful couple of days. HAPPY IMBOLC (see the previous entry for ritual information)!

Ahhh where to begin. Well the lecture I led was a stunning success. My prof. praised my ability to keep the attention of the audience and to ask thought provoking questions about Literary Theory. It was incredibly fun to teach people who are genuinely interested in what you are talking about. To celebrate I went to a poetry reading with a dred that I know from the spoken word crowd. It was really nice and I had a great time. I don't really do spoken word myself but I love to see others perform. Now for the bad news (well not bad really but not good either). 

Remember the young fella that I was interested in? Well he was about 10 years my junior and I wondered if the age difference would be an issue. Many spoke about maturity regardless of age while others felt that chronological proximity was the way to go. 

Well the fella was mature enough certainly but we were far apart in reference to life experiences. The references I made to things of my youth and of my generation were kinda foreign to him in many cases. It was really an unfair association for us both and I am glad that we figured it out before things got to far along. It's just as well because there is a young lady in our study group who is quite interested in him and since she just turned 20 and he is 24 they are better suited I think (lord that is young, I could be her mother JEEZ!...well ...if I got pregnant at 14).

Anyway it is back to square one for the Paganista but that's okay I have a million things on my plate right now and cultivating a relationship with a kid younger than my BABY brother is probably not conducive to getting things done right now.  Besides I am planning a trip to Jamaica with friends and should probably start looking for a good package since I am going in March. I can't wait to see Dunne's River Falls and check out the flora and fauna again. I snorkeled last time but this time I think I will try canoeing.  How about some poetry...here goes....

I'm Not Lonely

i'm not lonely
sleeping all alone

you think i'm scared
but i'm a big girl
i don't cry
or anything

i have a great
big bed
to roll around
in and lots of space
and idon't dream
bad dreams
like i used
to have that you
were leaving me
anymore

now that you're gone
i don't dream
and no matter
what you think
i'm not lonely
sleeping
all alone--Nikki Giovanni

Goddess Bless